All what I did in my adolescence,
With all my heart and persistence
Was finding ways to help the world
To change things and my own existence.
All was learnt from historical tomes,
Of moral behavior written in poetic tones,
Of valor and kindness, fortitude and bravery,
Of friendship, love, kinship and chivalry.
Come youth, time for testing these words and thoughts
Experimenting and finding faults.
To see whether they hold the meaning
Whether these are as rich
Or they require weaning
Alas! We learned how to barter
In friendship, everything had a price
Chivalry was killed when “they” needed, equal rights.
Loss Of Valuable Energy
Carnal companionship took its place
Kinship was murdered
People would no longer embrace.
What happened to me
Did I still believe
Or was I in the same bandwagon
Was I still aware
Of the love in the air
And the childhood friendship
That I could never compare?
I was confused
Troubled and bruised
By this transformation
And how the world cruised.
I had to find the answer
To what would happen to me
Would I still believe or would i let it be
Continue with the adulteration
In my spirit and mind
And let the things be which I left behind
Or would I spring back and try
To restore my corrupted conscience
And let my beliefs soar high?
I knew the answer
To where I belong
What was right and what was wrong
But would it do any good
To move against the tide
Was rich, successful and happy
But their spirit had died
How much time would it take
Before I could muster the courage
And live on my own terms
What would it cost
Infamy, scorn ?
What would hurt the most?
Whatever it be
Whatever it takes
But the answer to the question
Would remain unanswered
What happened to me?